You just can’t have everything you want. – Peter McWilliams
That is a phrase that has peppered the last 5 years of my life. I struggle with wanting so many things, not necessarily material items, but I find myself as one of those people that never have enough hours in the day to do everything I want.
I love my job. I love my side business. I love spending time with my family. I love spending time with my friends. I love working out. I love traveling. I love staying home. I love a good book and a glass of wine. I love hours in the library. I love napping. I love being outside on our property gardening or playing with my dogs. I love hiking. I love horse shows. I love camping. I love writing. I hate/love running. I am simultaneously torn between wanting to be hugely successful in my side business while also wanting to give it all up, live in an RV and travel the country before poniesandFIREjr is too old, as well as about eight other equally differing dreams.
Where do I fit it all in? Right now I don’t. I try to prioritize, I try to manage, I try to carve out time for all the “important” things, but constantly struggle with feeling like I’m not giving my 100% to my job or parenting or my husband. It feels like a big juggling act that (mostly) works, but is unnecessarily stressful.
That is my why.
Right now, I feel like I want to do all these things, but I can’t help but wonder what would shift in importance to me, if money wasn’t a factor. I love my job, but if I didn’t NEED it, how would I feel? What would change? If our house was paid off, if we had “enough” to sustain ourselves, if we had passive income, how would my priorities change?